fyi

dear friends,

autism resource centre will be organising a 2 day sports and fun camp during the march holidays! they are termed “autism friendly” sports camps, because well most of the children who are going to take part in the camps are autistic.

these enrichment programs are very important for these children because many a times, they are left to their own defences during their holidays. this means there is a break in their routine and discipline, and this would spell trouble when they come back to school after the holidays. also, some of them may even just watch cartoons for the entire week and come back to school blabbering nothing but cartoon speech. furthermore, parents of autistic children who attempt to place their kids at enrichment programs outside often face problems, because the organisations tend to reject them because of the autism and perhaps behavioural problems.

so this sports camp is one of the enrichment programs, and we would require volunteers for this activity. hopefully you guys would be able to spare some time to do something meaningful for just 2 days (:

March Sports and Fun Camp
Date: 10th and 11th of March (monday and tuesday)
Time: 11th – 8 to 5, 12th – 8 to after dinner time. (you do not really have to stay for dinner, but it will be great if you could)
Activities: hiking (treetop walk, changi beach board walk), swimming, games etc.

the sports and fun camps have been held for many years, and in each term, many rj volunteers will make time to have some fun with the autistic children. till date, i have received many positive responses about the volunteers’ experiences with the children, so i think i can safely say that it will be both a meaningful and fun volunteering experience if you take this up! 

right. so please consider volunteering okay! (:

if interested, please email me at:

me.zilin[at]gmail.com

by 27th February 2008, wednesday

and feel free to bring your friends along to volunteer too!

thank you thank you.

p.s.: those schooling you’ll get cip hours. everyone will get a surprise gift as a thank you too!

rock, shock

it is over.

i apologized to the person that i probably hurt most in my life. (excluding my family)

and he probably didn’t even deserve what i did to him.

now, i am reminded – does the apology mean that i am sorry for the things i have done? the whole “affair” (it’s easier to name it that way and no, it is not in terms of like the lovers affair or something) was so long drawn, i do not even know where to start. but i know that my apology was not for my reaction  to an event that triggered the whole affair. others may think that i had over-reacted at that moment, but i still stand my ground. for me, it was and still is an important belief for me, and i think i did not over-react as i was really unhappy with what he said.

i believe what i am apologising for is all the things i had done after the trigger event. i probably should not have treated him the way that i had. till now, i still do not understand how i managed to do the things that i did. the silent war – it was painful i think.

(this is ironic cause the music playing on my phone now says “it’s too late to apologize” from timbaland feat. one republic – apologize)

the silent war and everything else was probably over-reaction on my part. looking at some of things that were written during the period, it is hard to imagine how i managed to hurt someone to that extent. sigh.

however, i am glad he came out of the affair better than i did, so all’s fair i believe.

anyway, in this apology, i think it is a form of closure. it came more than one year after the “affair” – too long perhaps? but i think time has washed away so many details of the “affair” that it has become diluted enough for me to be able to apologize. does this make me a hypocrite? being able to apologize only when i lack the memory of what i did, it certainly makes me sound like a hypocrite. but i do not feel ashamed because time is the only thing that will allow a person to stand away from what happened and judge the events objectively. and having done that, i felt that it would be right for me to apologize and so i did.

better late than never, i guess.

 i do not really have the oh-my-gosh-i-am-so-relieved-cause-a-huge-rock-/-boulder-has-been lifted-from-my-heart feeling as expected from a closure, but it is a closure nonetheless. i am just glad i made the decision to apologize.

i did some thinking just now, and i realised that one can imagine me to be a person holding a short knife. from far, you cannot see the knife that i am holding, and i come across as a friendly person. but as you get closer, the knife will start to become obvious, and when you get too close, you will eventually be pricked, and then stabbed.

not with my girlfriends of course, but with guys – it has happened too many times.

so to my guy friends: if you start to notice the knife, don’t get closer. it’s not worth the trouble.

i’m sorry.

flippin’ win-lose

16 february 2008 -

the day my sis and i wore identical shirts to go visiting

a.k.a.

the day she got 3 sevens as a banker at blackjack and won 7 times of each bet.

bomb it goes

it has been a busy week for me i think. even though work ends at 3.30, i have been getting home at 7 plus instead of 4 plus!

oh and it is definitely not because of valentine’s day yesterday. but indeed i was at orchard on valentine’s day! however, i was not there on a date, i actually had an yale alumni interview yesterday in orchard. -.-” but it was quite a fun interview though (maybe cause he said it is not an interview, but is a discussion.) oh wells he asked me some quite interesting questions, so i think i enjoyed myself during the “discussion”.

anyway there were really many couples in orchard on valentine’s day, which kind of made me feel awkward walking around alone, but as js says “you can be alone, but not lonely” (: and i msg-ed “happy v day” to my two dear friends, and wy replied with, “v day means nothing to singles like us, sis.” (js didn’t reply anyway, as expected.) i wanted to reply to wy, “you? SINGLE?! LOL LOL LOL”, but i was nice and decided not to do that. but sis, you can read my reply here =P

right oh today something really funny happened in class! i was just standing at one of my kids’ tables checking their math work, and ‘g’ randomly said softly, “miss sim, i wish you would grow taller.”

…

i was like “?!” haha it was really a hilarious moment, and i was left speechless. in the end, i just said “yes g, i wish i would grow taller too.” lol looks like my kids have picked up the art of teasing already. haha!

and just on monday, my dear ‘r’ said to her form teacher, Ms L, who was like checking some stuff at the teacher’s table while the kids were performing their duties, “but miss L, your lessons are so boring and difficult”. it was really like a “!!!” moment. i was like “OMG my dear ‘r’ you are totally asking for it!!!” cause she gets scolded by Ms L almost everyday in class and this time, it was not any different. i won’t write about Ms L’s reaction now, since it would be unforgettable for me.

yes.

i do love all my kids.

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float on a magic carpet

there were a few things that i wanted to blog about yesterday, but it so happened that when i got home after the assessment centre, i was so tired that i fell asleep at the couch. that equals no time for blogging. needless to say, with my incredibly short memory, some of the things had flown away.

anyway, the thing that i remembered was something that made me very exaspersated/annoyed. hm i would not say annoyed, but i was definitely shaking my head after seeing that happen. yesterday after the dsta assessment centre and very long trip home from buona vista, i was waiting at the eunos interchange for my bus 60. i think the time was 7.04pm, and there were possibly a 1000 people waiting in line for bus 60. okay i exaggerate. but anyway it was definitely something like this -

where the blue lines are the straight metal things that tell you where to stand, and the black dots are people.

so this means there were alot of people waiting at the end to get up the stupid bus 60! and then there’s this über stupid guy who is probably like my age, all able and stuff, who was walking towards the bus interchange.

now, the bus arrives. obviously, not everyone would be able to fit up the bus right? if i make a good estimate, about the first 2 rows will be able to fit up the small bus 60. what did the über stupid guy do? he spotted the bus, and he ran. take note – he was still walking towards the bus interchange, i.e. he was not in the line. (btw, i was already in the line.)

okay so he ran. he ran to the door of the bus, and stood beside the queue of people who just started to board.  so i was like, “okay, at least he is waiting for the people to board first. but isn’t that quite dumb? by the time the queue finishes, he would not even have the space to board the bus. he should just queue up like me.”

to my utmost surprise, after only 5 people, he sneaked (correction – he didn’t sneak, he just walked up.) into the queue and boarded the bus.

I WAS LIKE @#%@^%$&$#^&(*^%*&^.

i was not angry because he got to board the bus while i didn’t, but i was angry at how he had the nerve to board the bus when he could obviously see 100 other people in the queue to board the bus. and that is not the best part, he walked up the bus, and sat down. perhaps i would have been more forgiving if he actually had the conscience to not take a seat. but he freakin’ sat down. looking at the queue, it is easy to see that most people on the bus would probably be standing on the bus, and he had the nerve to sit down.

i just do not understand why these people do not know that it is common courtesy to wait at the door until everyone in the queue has boarded the bus. is it not only right? if not, everyone would have already been waiting somewhere else instead of in the queue, cause i could easily board the bus and freakin’ get a seat if i just make a run for the bus when it arrives.

ARGH.

 and i do not expect him to ever learn that it is not nice, cause he probably never did queue up for a bus in his life.

stupid guy.

anyway, in other news, i found another hidden rj couple today. quite cool quite cool, i never did expect them to be together, and they have been together for a year or so! haha. power of love.

in the milk

this box of chocolates by godiva is limited edition.

it will set you back by 180 bucks.

sorry to have destroyed it with the newspaper background!

tuning the radio to halfway between stations

when you really feel like crying, but you don’t want to cry because you know it will just make things worse, but you have to cry cause it is your fault and it makes you feel better, and you can’t stop yourself from thinking that you shouldn’t be crying,

how do you not cry?