morning gate

facebook asked me what’s on my mind. many things. too many to place into a smart-aleck status update, one that will make it seem as if people actually care about what is on your mind by commenting or liking it. well for some, it does not even have to be smart-alecky. i guess once you are popular enough, people naturally care about what is on your mind so pretense is not necessary. kind of like when you are a famous artist. you work like crap to become famous, then after that you can produce crap and still make it seem amazing.

sometimes people write smart-alecky status updates, or even emo ones. and it is strangely weird when no one responds to them. i would think that they would be clearly disappointed. and sometimes i think it is important to consider the time of the day. like you would not want to status update a brilliant sentence when it is like 4 am for everyone, unless you are somewhere in america and still have friends who care about you in singapore.

well clearly, i belong to the people don’t really care what i think category. maybe that is why i hardly do status updates on facebook. there is an inherent fear that it exposes myself to judgment, like “HAH! no one responded to your status update, you must really suck.” i guess that is what facebook is mostly about, putting yourself out for the world to judge, and then boost/lower your self-esteem according to how popular you are.

and among other things on my mind, friendships are high on the list. are friendships something one actively works towards? or something that happens naturally? i have this idea that friendships are really based on opportunities, and that is probably why proximity friendships are more common than not. as much as you would like a person to be a friend, how far can you go before you just become annoying or seemingly in possession of an ulterior motive?

somehow i think it is pretty unnatural to want someone to be your friend, when he/she is not already mostly around.

perhaps it is cause all i have are proximity friendships.